my first letter to you here
Oh my Love It's been so long since I've really really cried about missing you. I wish you were here. I wish you weren't gone. I feel like I dont know how to talk to you anymore... like saying this is all an act for a future self of me and I'm not sure if I used to talk to you the same way that I'm writing. (and YES, it does matter... to anyone else reading. The distinction matters. Though He wouldn't need to have been told that. He would intrinsicly understand that.) My Love... how am I ever supposed to have a 'normal' life without you? I ache for you. I know that, objectively I suppose, that life is 'better' because I dont have our conbflixt to deal with or your issues to hurt me (or mine to hurt you, to be fair) But.... I just wish you could be here. You. The real you... the one I loved endlessly. The one who caused the world to stop when we really kissed. Just soft lips touching and the world.... would pause. I ACHE for you. That soul who...